Ok, so I’ve been a bit busy. I’ve been stressed, working, joining a new guild, killing things, standing in bad, moving too slowly and all sorts of things. Here follows a bit of a whine post, a bit of a vent and a let go of thoughts, feelings and emotions. This is what my blog was set up for and I’m going to use it for that again….
First off – PETS! Yay for in game pets – I’m still working on 2 3 but am now up to 159 pets in my collection – more later – I need to take some screenies and stuff.
Here’s one to keep you going.
So. Real life work has been the absolute worst I’ve ever had in my 20 odd year career. The project I’m doing is intensely stressful and is getting me down. Things are in progress to move it on, but it’s not happening as fast as I’d like.
With all this going on it’s been a bit hard to blog when you’re also trying to settle into a new guild. I do like my new guild, but I’ve not really been feeling good enough for the progress group. Being the worrier that I am I think it is all my fault. I think every little thing that is being said is about me, against me, criticising me. I know I’m an OK player, but compared to the other healers in the progress group I don’t stack up. When there is only really room for 3 it’s not fun to be sidelined for new fights and it’s been making me quite sad.
Actually, I have been quite successful – I’ve killed Heroic Halfus, Maloriak and Atramedes. I’ve had several less than 5% wipes on Heroic Chimaeron too. But I’m not picked to go for new things. I am OK with this. If I were in the raid leader’s position I’d do the same. I don’t learn fast any more. Once I know something I can do it over and again, but I’m not the best at new.
So I chatted to the GM and have agreed that I will move to be with Group 2. They are at the sort of position I was before I started all this find a new home thing. They have killed 10/12 normal and are working on Cho’Gall and Nefarian. As I’ve not actually killed Nefarian or Al’Akir yet I think this is a good place for me. Also, I can go back Disc. Yes, I always loved the complexity and challenge of Holy, but right now it’s all too much. Disc I think for me is easier and after all my time in that spec for WotLK I think it flows more naturally.
Of course the progress group killed 5 HC bosses in their 3 hour raid yesterday. This threw up a mix of feelings again for me – it made me jealous, miserable, but proud of the guild as well. Oh, and all cloth loot dropped, of course! But I think it will be a good thing for me. I do like the guild, but I don’t like the pressure. I know most of that is self inflicted, but I want to play for fun more than I want progress. Yes, I still want to kill stuff and be the best that I can be, but I don’t want the more hardcore side of things. I think I would be happy to have killed all the bosses on normal before moving on and have chilled and got to make some more friends along the way. But then my hormones and emotions are all over the place, so I’m still not completely sure!
I do know that I had more fun getting this recently than I did in some of my recent progression raids 
Which probably says a lot too.
